training was good. drilled.
practicing purp test tomorrow with matt and some other people.
eatting tons of grub.
work sucked ass. im only person who is fluent in english in that store. dont give a fuck about whether or not i get fired from there.
lians coming over so we can do Environmental science tests. get that shit over with.
pretty good summary of my day o.o!!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
rough weekend
training monday kinda sucked but its whatever just had a tournament saturday. i think it sucked because i was really disappointed in myself from this tournament..
i just didnt prepare right for this one i feel like.. i ate pure shit night before, i didnt lose any weight for this tournament even though weigh ins were day before. now im paying for it.. driving myself crazy over it. before this weekend i felt like i deserved a purple belt and was ready for it. now a part of me feels like i dont deserve shit..
shark said he really feels like im ready to be a purple and shit.. its just my call whether or not i want to test. i think i just put myself in a mental slump cause of my poor performance at naga... im at a low point.. im waiting to see if i feel better this week and next week.. that'll decide what i decide to do about the testing i suppose. ive re-dedicated myself to learning new guards and sweeps and just expanding my game. ive also decided that i need to get stronger.. my main training partners are at least 30lbs heavier than me.. if i was a little stronger i would feel 10x better against these big guys.. i hate that feeling of just not being strong enough..
i feel i do deserve one.. i just need to see how i feel and how i feel mentally in the next few days or weeks.
i just didnt prepare right for this one i feel like.. i ate pure shit night before, i didnt lose any weight for this tournament even though weigh ins were day before. now im paying for it.. driving myself crazy over it. before this weekend i felt like i deserved a purple belt and was ready for it. now a part of me feels like i dont deserve shit..
shark said he really feels like im ready to be a purple and shit.. its just my call whether or not i want to test. i think i just put myself in a mental slump cause of my poor performance at naga... im at a low point.. im waiting to see if i feel better this week and next week.. that'll decide what i decide to do about the testing i suppose. ive re-dedicated myself to learning new guards and sweeps and just expanding my game. ive also decided that i need to get stronger.. my main training partners are at least 30lbs heavier than me.. if i was a little stronger i would feel 10x better against these big guys.. i hate that feeling of just not being strong enough..
i feel i do deserve one.. i just need to see how i feel and how i feel mentally in the next few days or weeks.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
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